so what?

SO WHAT IF I NEVER CHANGE?
SHOULD I DIE THEN?
I NEVER EVEN BOTHER THEM...
I KEEP THINKING THEY ONLY THOUGHT ME AS A BURDEN
WHETHER I TRY HARD TO MAKE SOMETHING DIFFERENT I THINK NOTHING GONNA CHANGE FROM IT
ALL MY FAMILY HATE ME EVEN I DONT HAVE TO MAKE MYSELF DIFFERENT FROM THEM
THEY ONLY LOOKING FOR CHILD WHO IS THEY CAN TOLD HOW THEY GONNA BE
I KNOW IM JUST A HEARTLESS PERSON HAVE NO BRAIN N NO SHAME THAT ALWAYS MAKE MY FAMILY FEELING SO ANGRY WHENEVER IM AROUND BUT STILL THEY DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I ALREADY BEEN THROUGH IN SCHOOL OR EVEN IN MY WHOLE DIFFERENT LIFE NOR PLACE